Dil se re! (From the heart)

God is not interested in bringing a behavior modification but for sure He is more into bringing a heart transformation in your life. –  A sermon on ”True Holiness’ by Pr. Joseph Prince.

You don’t change by revamping by your external behavior but only by true change in your heart.

Holiness is not coming from changes in behaviour but by a transformed heart. Do not look to change behaviors. Focus on allowing our heart to be transformed.

True holiness stems from heart.


Khag – one of my Everyday Hero

I can never forget this guy. Khag, a Masters student from Thailand was working with me alongside in Boots-Waterloo station, a retail outlet in London.He was a friendly chap. He doesn’t speak much but have some unique gentleness in all he does. Endearing guy. He works at terrific speed and precision. Very dedicated to the work at hand.  Affable manners… We became good friends -chatting at work, eating together, cracking jokes.. Had a good time.

So what made him, my everyday hero?…

It’s the conversation I had with him during lunch in the dungeon like stock room of the retail shop.I think it would be good if I put in dialogue format – as I remember the words he spoke still.

We were eating sandwiches in lunch usually..As I was curious about Thailand culture, I started the conversation about the culture, religion and beliefs.   Later…

Me: Hey, Khag, Have you got a girlfriend?

Khag: Yes, for the last two years. She is working in Thailand, have’nt seen after I came here for a year or so… She might come here to UK for checking me..

Me: Cool, so when is your marriage?

Khag: Yeah, she has not yet decided whether I am the guy…

Me: Oh, That’s tricky.  What are the chances she might not choose you if you could say? Given that you have not seen her for long, man

Khag: I don’t know … I can’t still figure that out.

Me: Hmm, Sorry for asking, will it not hurt you if she chooses another guy?

Khag: Infact, It will not hurt if she does that properly.

Me: What do you mean by that?

Khag munching food and sipping coke in a non-chalant manner looking at me honestly.. said

Khag: I will not worry if she leaves me for an other guy  who is better than me. But would feel bad  if she chooses a wrong guy who is worse than me.

Now, you know why he is my everyday hero..

Not worldview but this is babyview :-)



You entering into the baby’s world.

You see through baby’s eyes.

You have just woken up to life.

You see big & small things. Colors. Sounds.

big people- smiling faces, adoring eyes. open arms. caring touch.. lullabies…

You receive all hugs n kisses.

Every little thing is… exciting….new…. Every sound makes you to wonder…

Your eyes go wide exclaiming-

Wow!What a wonderful maker ?

-arun’s first official post in a blog in 2005 republished now

From Arun version 8 to 9!

There are no neurotics or geniuses or failures or fools. There are only neurotic moments, flashes of brilliance, failed opportunities, and stupid mistakes. But these moments, pleasant or unpleasant, can never fix us into rigid, immutable characters. We cannot help but change.”
– David K. Reynolds from Constructive Living

Yes, there are some foolish acts, failures, neurotic acts, stupid mistakes…which  I did in 2008. That cannot box me in. As the quote above states, they are individual moments.. They cannot fix us into immutable characters. I can change for the better and I will. (As Abraham Maslow once said, “What one can be, one must be!”)

There is nothing to regret but to appreciate the best I had in 2008 gratefully. The best of life is still to come. The coming part (2009 onwards) of the life is going to be definitely better than my past. Relishing the NOW- looking forward with all of my heart, expecting Great things for God!

Dear God, Help me to be the best ever version of Arun! Update my software as I submit my internal code to you to program my core once again. I am yours! Sincerely-Arun

What I Have Lived For

Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a great ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.

I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy – ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness–that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what–at last–I have found.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine. And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux. A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.

Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be. I long to alleviate this evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer.

This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me.

Bertrand Russell (1872-1970) won the Nobel prize for literature for his History of Western Philosophy and was the co-author of Principia Mathematica.

These words are from the Prologue to Bertrand Russell’s Autobiography.

Two Solitudes

“Love consists in this, that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other”

Ranier Maria Rilke

Easter Special

March 5,2008

Today at my office 5.00 pm,I was seriously breaking my brains to get ideas to write the skeleton for a case study. There is only one christian apart from me in my office. Her name is Kondamal, the house keeping lady. A 40+ year old very devout christian women, always kind and very soft spoken. She used to do all the cleaning, sweeping, toilet cleaning at my office. She often rejoices when talking about Christ to all at office. Very openly she will share about prayer, her christian beliefs and church to all.

Today she brought a tamil bible to my collegue and asked my colleague to explain the scripture. My colleague asked me to explain as I am a christian.

I asked, “Is it a bible passage?”. My colleague said, “you are a christian, you should be able to explain”

As often with me, I thought, how am I going to explain this?, what passage it is?…..etc..

She showed me the bible passage in the tamil bible said, “Arun Sir, this is the one page that I am getting everytime I opened the bible. Can you just explain?”

I said, “Ma, It is in tamil, you do know to read tamil, right? or you know how to read only in Telugu?”.

She ( her mother tongue is telugu, not tamil) said, “Sir, I don’t know how to read telugu. Tamil, I’m trying to read by adding the tamil aphabets. My parents and my grand parents never allowed us to go to school or taught to us.”

I said,” Ma, I will just read the passage, ok?” meaning, that I won’t give any explanation. She gleefully nodded her head.

I read the scripture she showed me to read as best as I could in tamil. I was reading from my table. She was leaning towards my table.
The scripture I read to her is:

1Then Pilate took Jesus and had him flogged. 2The soldiers twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on his head. They clothed him in a purple robe 3and went up to him again and again, saying, “Hail, king of the Jews!” And they struck him in the face.
4Once more Pilate came out and said to the Jews, “Look, I am bringing him out to you to let you know that I find no basis for a charge against him.” 5When Jesus came out wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe, Pilate said to them, “Here is the man!”
6As soon as the chief priests and their officials saw him, they shouted, “Crucify! Crucify!”
But Pilate answered, “You take him and crucify him. As for me, I find no basis for a charge against him.”

John 19:1-6.

Suddenly, I heard some sound, I just looked up at her. Both her eyes was filled with tears and tears were just streaming down.

Realising that I saw her, she just wiped her tears and with smiles displaying all over her face, tilting her head (meaning thanks to me) took the bible from my hand and left.Inside me, sensing the impact of this small incident, I started wondering….

God, are we missing something?