From my mouth came these words, “He is always like that. I dont want to take anymore of this. Its done deal……. …” . I had my friend’s actions make me too disturbed recently. I was upset and was blurting things out “I never want to be treated like this ….If he treats us like that then Whats the point in being friends with him?…. No Use…” I lost my peace when I did that. I was really planning not to work on that friendship again. I didnt realise what I was doing.
Later, after a couple of days, I found my another friend getting irritated over his pal over a different issue. In short, He just used the same lines that I used while talking to me. As I watched my friend getting upset, and speaking out, one single impulse of thought sparked in my mind, my silence was disturbed.
I blurted the thought out to him, ” If God gets upset n gives up on me so quickly like that, How pitiable I ll be?”. That one line silenced my friend. (And me too)
I was really shaken inside, as it was as if I was struck by a rod . One more time again to my long list, I was convicted! I believe I was chastened by that incident. I mulled it over. How true? Oh, How wrong I ve been quick to give a judgement sentence on people? If God so quickly gives judgement, I ll never have hope. Who I am to judge and pass opinions? I felt ashamed of what I did in that quick act of judgement. How patient and longsuffering has God been with me? How many chances has He given me? Countless times. ….God, You were too good for me.
I ll become longsuffering like my God, I ll become patient like my God. If my God endures so much, I should endure atleast a fraction. As I live, I ll work on relationships without giving up on people and without judging people because of their actions,lifestyle, behaviour and comments as God gives me the strength.
My sweet Jesus, Work on me! Give me the strength to forgive and love! Forgive me too. Jesus, endow me with that resolute love and passion You had! My loving Jesus, I depend totally on you to change me! Change me!